One day, about one hundred of us continued this same practice with one of the successors of Taisen Deshimaru.
It was a beautiful experience, to be a beginner again, to recreate a wandering temple.
I was this sangha’s representant in Barcelona, until around 2000.

By then, I began a new stage, in which I decided to walk alone.
This patriarchal form had fulfilled its mission in my personal growth, and had turned into a sort of obstacle to living my experience.

Nevertheless, I carry it within me as a mother sangha. Everything I received, I untaught myself.
It is alive and united to all the sanghas and to all beings, with no distinctions.

Zen Dokan is the Dojo I run as a nun, not as a teacher, just as it is understood in Zen. I humbly teach this practice from my thirty years of practice. As each day goes by, I feel more like a beginner; in the sense of not knowing, not pretending, not trying to achieve anything.

I would like to be able to dedicate more and more hours to the dojo, but Zen is my practice and not my source of income.

I work as a Gestalt therapist.

I've received the teachings of Claudio Naranjo, and have understood the necessity of working with “the Ego.”
My path now divides itself into two: Zazen and Gestalt-Transpersonal Therapy.

Zen experience is the root which is directs all the forms created in my daily life. At a Zen level I now look for inspiration from the American lineage successors of Maezumi Roshi. I'm also inspired by Daniel Odier's Chan and Cashmir’s Shivaism.

I take these treasures received through out the years, with care and gratitude.

Thank you to all the teachers who have taught me, to my students, and to all beings.

Gassho"

Anik Billard